Dudes not Men

As I walk the streets of my town and look around at the product of MY generation I see an avid adversary to the gentry. The dude.

The dude is mostly every man we see nowadays. He is not self reliant. He depends on a man for even the most basic tasks. He doesnt take responsibilty for his actions. He is more into self beautification than the average woman. Dedicated to the principles that make men immascualte.  The immasculate revolution. Doors for women died with the man. There are so few men anymore. Schools keep boys at bay from being boys. Its the society we live in. To be a man is on the outside. To want to work hard, to want to hunt, be self sufficient, self reliant, independant yet a caring and decent father. To be a father not a dad.To foster the future generation of Men all of these traits are negative. What is the key to being a succesful non woman? 

Hair teeth nails clothes cars drugs pleasure entertainment carelessness no accountablity for ones actions.  back and forth 

it has been a long time.  Since the last time I spoke with you I have left her. She was abusive, and I was so submissive. I liked it though, she would hit me and berate me, make me do things to humiliate me, but I liked it, becauase ever so often I would get just a smidgen of enjoyment, and that would make me keep coming back.

      But it finally reached a point. i reached a point. I quit. I gave up. I overcame. I told her off. She didnt even care. Didnt look at me. Didnt turn around. Just stood there back turned and ignored me. And I ran. Oh I fucking ran and have tripped looking back. But with my scraped knees I have overcome. 

     With day anew I look to the rain clouds with pleasure. I will eventually stop crying.