gracefully passing into the night

with arms wide open, accepting

what will come before morning light

and each morning i am robbed

denied declined disheartened am I

that never did it come to fruition 

and i remember back 

to thoughts that wrought havoc and clarity

fear is relieved

by a slow steady trigger squeeze

LET THEM EAT WAR

Happy Holidays 2007

It has hit me finally. ly. ly. My life seems like it is culmanating. It is coming to a pinnacle. So I would believe. lieve liev lie. After years of forced misery, I have chosen life. I have seleceted a pathe that diverted me down a unique meandering cordorouy. No, not a cordorouy like the ancient settlers fumbled on, more like I have changed my bearing slightly off the orginal course. Im still on the same plot of water, shooting an azimuth to the final destination, but I didnt use Mils. So my vatriation is off, what the hell was that mil relation formula again? 17 mils to a degree, so accurate, but I didnt care. Like I said shooting for the same destination, plus I know LARS or RALS whatever the hell it is and I can shoot back Azimuth. Ill get there someday

none

writhe in pain.

I want you to understand.

look at me, feel, empathize.

an echo sounds deep, 

enchanted as it dances around the mind

and trickles to the tongue. 

it pours out. 

Flashes of crimson and white.

stings.

volume.

ringing with violence, 

it tears apart and yet comes with the ease of opening a letter

dis-belief

you knew me  

laugh and cherish whimiscal moments

engage with the innocence that only youth has

and then its over.

you forget 

and i live 

corroding, eroding 

I alone

you'll never understand

you cant empathize, you cant feel